Have Faith Even if the World has Let You Down

Got cheated? Disappointed by the people around you? Give all you got and you get nothing in return? Welcome to the world. It is the reality. I have some much disappointment that I have lost count. Put too much expectation on someone. Love the wrong person. The opportunity that can change your life but comes crashing down. Time and again, all you get nothing but tears and heartache. How much more you can tolerate? How much more your broken heart can take?

It is what it is. Disappointment is when things did not happen in according to our desire. Accept that life can be a harsh place. People can do horrible things to hurt you, even from someone that you love. Open your heart to someone and there is a chance you will be disappointed. Remember, it is not their fault. It is not your fault either.

Never lost faith. Part of an actor’s job is to face disappointment. Thought you fit for a role? Sorry. You could be too tall. Too good looking. Too perfect. Dust off and go for your next casting call. Keep trying.
Today I am disappointed because of someone important did not turn up for the meeting. Last week, I thought I did well in my work but the critic was scathing. Nevermind, dust off, learn from it and try again.

Do not wallow in self-pity. It is easy to go into a downward spiral of self-pity. It is a bottomless pit. I have been there myself. Self-pity brings you nowhere except being comfortable feeling sorry for yourself.

Let your failures define you. Because you are trying. There is no finishing line in life. You cannot one stop. Maybe one day you can whisper into the mirror, I did it.

Being The Dumbest Person in The Room

I am a dumb person. When I was studying in Australia, someone remarked that I am so stupid, it takes me two hours to watch Sixty Minutes. The person is right! The incident has also strengthened my passion to learn and to grind.
I have also learned that I cannot be the smartest person in the room. If I am, I am probably in the wrong room.
Jordan Peterson’s 12 Rules for Life, rule number 9 says it well — Assume that the person you are listening to might know something you don’t. There is always something that you can learn from the person sitting next to you. The only thing that you need to do is to remove your ego and open your ears.
Removing the ego is probably the most difficult thing. Being the dumbest means you will get feedback that puts your down. You will feel lost and frustrated. For every two steps that you take, there is one step back. Or you may not even go anywhere.
I am learning Python to expand my knowledge into Data Science. I would spend hours reading and coding that results to nowhere. Every time I struggle to urge to quit. I am too old to learn a new programming language. It is just too difficult without a coach to help me. I am too tired from work and family. My computer is not good enough. I have excuses and more excuses. Nevertheless, I power through with the discomfort.
A lot of people have the wrong impression that being the dumbest person is a long term thing. It is okay to be dumb, but what are you going to do about it? The only constant in life is change. You can change from being dumb to being smart. To be smart, you need to feel uncomfortable and embrace your ignorance. Knowing your ignorance will set you free.
I am still trapped in my old perception of the world. I know I am dumb, and it also hurts when someone says I am dumb. I learn. I do my best. I put down my ego. Today, I am better than yesterday.